Be Still My Heart

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Yesterday, as I carefully screened my lab work, my cursor hovered over the final report for my electrocardiogram. The screen said the test was final and that the report had been sent to the Cardiologist for final review. I didn’t think to open it…why would I?

This morning, I logged back onto the lab website to see if my Zinc test had come back. It was the only value missing. Disappointed that it was still missing, I went to close the window when I noticed a small box in the top right hand corner of my screen. I clicked on it and it opened up to a pdf of my electrocardiogram tracing.

To my surprise, there was a notation in bold letters on the front- Abnormal ECG!!!


I was so consumed by seeing the lab results come in yesterday, that I didn’t even worry about the cardiac as it wasn’t a concern, not at all.

My word…my heart- how could that be? I have a strong heart, everyone always tells me so. The heart of a well conditioned athlete they said. Sure, my heart rate is slow but that is due to my high level of fitness right?

Who am I kidding, my fitness is non-existent. Its hard to be fit when you can’t maintain your balance doing the simplest of tasks and your muscles alternate from tired to spasmodic all the time. I stopped running after multiple drop foot experiences and one major fall. I used to be fit…I miss being fit…

Does this mean that the tightening around my chest, shooting arm pain, finger tingling and jaw pain are actually cardiac symptoms? It makes sense but all tests showed other wise previously. Now, I need to see a cardiologist to rule out heart disease.

I had accepted the possibility of neurological disease, I am not ready for cardiac too…

When it rains it pours…

3 thoughts on “Be Still My Heart

  1. I totally understand how you must feel. It is not easy at all to accept a neurological illness and it isn’t fair at all there might be something else going on. What I can say about the abnormal EKG is,try to not overthink this and wait for the doctor to explain this. I do the same thing and view reports and then freak out about everything, it’s only a natural reactions! When will you see your doctor again? If there is anything I can do to help during this difficult time, please do not hesitate to reach out to me!!!


      1. Oh my goodness sweetie, I know how difficult it is waiting to get answers, but stressing about it will only cause more issues. I wish there was more I could do or say that would ease your stress. I hope your weekend is great and definitely as stress free as possible!!


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